Roll Call 11.23.22 #2711
Good Morning Warriors!
Today is a tough one for me. It’s my Dad’s birthday and he is still alive yet I am not free to go be with him today. Because of that Black Widow who took over his life before my mother’s dead body was lowered into the ground, I lost my mother and my father on the same day.
I know some people would condemn me and say that I should have stayed in his life, and still attended all the family functions regardless of this woman.
But it’s not that simple.
I did try to remain in the family but it was not just about this woman. It is bad enough that she has literally taken over his home, runs the place, and is treated by the rest of the family as if she is the rightful woman of the house. But as I’ve mentioned before my own sisters hate me and have done everything in their power to hurt me including treating me like an outsider and her like a victim.
I know that there are some of you who also feel the pain of being estranged from your families.
What is the most ‘interesting’ to me is after I made the hard decision to stop putting myself in that toxic environment and allowing myself to be their spiritual and emotional target, I started looking back over my life and began to see how this did not just start with my mother’s death but virtually all my life.
I don’t know about your situation, but I can look back through my life all the way back, and now certain things that happened or were said I can see my sisters hated me from the time they drew their first breath. I was always the odd man out.
And it has carried through until now. They backed the Black Wideo one thousand percent and were glad to see me remove myself from the family. And then turned around and blamed me for leaving.
That is what is known as gaslighting and yes entire families can pick out one person and do that to them. I’ve become the scapegoat for the entire family.
After my mother’s funeral where my sisters intervened and kept me from speaking and went so far as to say to my face that I would be an embarrassment if I tried to preach, I attended a service at my Dad’s church (again trying to remain part of this family).
It was the church I grew up in which is the prime example of the old country church out in the middle of nowhere and the preacher is a country bumpkin that has no power or real knowledge of The Word. He gives his little twenty-minute feel-good speech on Sunday and everyone is good to go.
But I digress, that particular Sunday after the service was over I was still inside and the rest of the family had gathered outside when suddenly out from the graveyard came a black snake and stopped at the feet of my sister (the one who truly hates me the most).
That was confirmation to me that day, a reminder of just how much satan is involved in what has happened with my family and I know with yours as well.
My heart is heavy today and I share about it only as a reminder to you that if you are estranged from your family, and at its core, it is because of your Faith, then it is not your fault.
If you are like me, the enemy tried to beat you to death with guilt. He tries to convince you that all of this is your fault, you caused it, you could fix it, and all of it is on your shoulders. Or he tries to convince you that you have not really forgiven them even though you pray for them and ‘reforgive’ them just to be sure over and over. He is a liar and the father of lies, always remember that.
More than likely you have tried really hard to remain within the family but no matter what you do, they find fault with you or go out of their way to make you so uncomfortable that you have had to make the hard decision to stay away altogether.
M heart is heavy for and with you.
Both my father and my stepson are under the demonic spell of satan’s minion Black Widows. These women come into their victim’s lives and the first thing they do is cause them to ‘hate’ their intended target.
This woman who now lives with my father did not care about anything else but driving me away and because of the intense emotional pain of trying to remain in what became a toxic environment, she got her way.
If you still have a relationship with your family and are able to truly feel as if you are among people who care about you then you are Blessed because, for the Remnant, that is rare indeed.
Godspeed & Warrior On!
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I Bless you today in The Name of Jesus. In Jesus’ Name, I call down The Consuming Fire of God hotter than ever before to surround us and our homes and all we represent. In all our coming and going I declare The Consuming Fire of God goes before and is our rear guard. I call forth legions of angels to hearken to the voice of His Word and go to work bringing manifestation of The Promise that even as many fall it will not come near us. In The Name of Jesus, I curse and condemn every negative word, prayer, curse, hex, or spell released against us. I declare every generational curse null and void. I declare the Treasury of Heaven open on our behalf and that prosperity will abound too and through us to The Honor and Glory of God and to advance His Kingdom. I declare God’s Favor is our portion and will manifest in every way and every day of our lives! I declare our Gratitude and willing obedience will make room for us in our Father’s eyes. I declare all these things done and expect only a good report and outcome. In Jesus Mighty & Holy
Name. Amen and Amen!
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November 23, 2022 @ 11:01 am
Sadly, I can relate! Been weeping the past few days, from the laftest surprise satanic attack! Praying that we all will be strong and able to have our Faher’s supernatural stength and Victory thru it all to the Glory and Honor of our God and King Jesus! 😢💔🙏🀄Isaiah 41:10 (the amplified)
November 23, 2022 @ 2:44 pm
I hear ya, my relationship with my mother has been toxic from day 1. I have tried to reconcile that many times to no avail. I now keep my distance except for the obligatory semi annual 2 day visit. My current home is silently toxic ( everyone is avoidant but the underlying tension is very stressful) as well and I lack the resources to get out and re established on my own and no I don’t have the resources to invest in selling anything. I got into this situation in disobedience, so its my own fault.
November 25, 2022 @ 9:06 am
Wow, So sorry my dear sister & other sisters here! ( And Linda Riscart ), I know each of your stories from before and share a similar story. MY husband, I believed was a believer, was on fire for Jesus. A deaf man and we were highly involved in a deaf ministry. Sadly, after we married, I realized he was not the believer I knew prior. He had NO interest in our 2 hearing children. We, 3, were then on our own as their dad (?) was more like a rebellious teen. I stayed trying, praying as counselors ien my church told me our prayers could save him. But this did not occur. Why did the verse regarding (“if a husband refuses to protect and care for his wife and children, he is worse than an infidel, come up?)… After my son was 17, and I was STILL trying to pray his dad back into the Lord, he divorced me!! .Married a deaf woman he met at another church!!?? And it confused my children deeply!! My daughter could not understand WHY her dad never loved her and took her life 4.years back. And my son struggles, left his strong belief in Jesus and my 4 grandchildren are not allowed to go to church…SO I CONTINUE to pray for ALL of them, 17 years now for my son and his family. My one grandson, Liam ( the Lion) does love Jesus! . HALLELUJAH. I was left destitute financially due to this divorce, and yet my Ex, who had no grounds Biblically (nor by state we live in),.his new wife’s dad is wealthy and got a lawyer that intimidated my lawyer (.YES , that is how it works). Always about who has more $… This ex doesn’t even involve himself in my grandkids lives, but he still attended our.Thanksgiving yesterday. Why? To tell us all about his recent trip, to Iceland! They go on about 4 luxurious trips per year. And now are able to hire one of top “tour guides” in the world!! I can barely stay afloat due to this divorce. I NEVER was in debt prior, and now I have the worse credit scores, rent where I live ( in basement with a believer upstairs). But I do know this… Soon my son will return to his first love, Jesus…and all my grandkids and daughter-in-law will come back to Jesus! Hallelujah. Jesus said, ” they will hate you, because they hated me first!”. It is a hard walk! But it is a WORTHY walk!
November 25, 2022 @ 5:15 pm
I hear ya! rebellious teenager is a good description. I can handle a rebellious teenager who is actually a teenager, but when its someone who is supposed to be an adult and supposed to be my partner, that’s a different story.